It’s been almost four years since my last race.
WOAH. Doing the math made me realize it’s been a long time since I’ve toed the starting line.
Am I ready for this? Am I ready to race again?
It’s not that I meant to let so much time pass in between races, but life happens. Weeks after my last half marathon in 2014, I graduated college, moved to a new state with my then-fiance and we started new jobs. Three months after we started those jobs, a better opportunity arose and we moved again.
At that point, we were one month away from our wedding, starting new jobs and enjoying life as soon-to-be newlyweds. After our honeymoon, winter came and I only ran every now and then. Plus there aren’t many races in small-town living and definitely none in the winter. By spring, we were moving again (to my hometown — which is where we still live).
Once we settled into life in Owensboro, I wanted to start racing again. Owensboro has a pretty good running community and I knew I would have more opportunities for races. In the spring of 2016, I signed up for the Owensboro Half Marathon that fall. 10 weeks into training, the race got canceled due to lack of interest. I was pissed and honestly just took a break from running for a bit. I had busted my butt all summer for nothing (yes, I know it was good for me, but my sole purpose of the training was for this specific race).
For Christmas 2017, my husband (who really is the absolute best) surprised me with a treadmill. I still didn’t have a race in mind, but at least now I was motivated to run more.
When I got the opportunity to join the Rock N Blog team in December of 2017, I jumped at the chance and signed up for my first marathon. Go big or go home, right?!
Disclosure: I am on the 2018 Rock n Blog crew and was given a Rock n Roll Tour Pass 10-pack. The opinions expressed in this post are my own.
Now I’m 40-something days away from race day and I am so excited (!!!) but also starting to freak out a little.
Can I really run a marathon? Ohmygosh, I am going to be so slow. Is all this pain worth it? What if I fail? What if I DNF? (<– nightmare) This might be only chance to run a marathon (let’s be honest — they are expensive!) I don’t want to mess this up. What should I wear?
I’m trying to not the fear of racing again overwhelm me. I run for me and no one else. So no matter what happens on race day I know I will be proud of what I’ve accomplished so far (like running 15 freaking miles on Saturday!)
So thank you, Run Rock N Roll for helping me (hopefully!) accomplish a dream. (Thanks for the tourpass, too!)